Sending off

I've been sent off too many times I forgot how it feels like anymore.
I've only send someone off one time before that is my older sis.
That time I don't really feel anything wrong or anything sad at all.
Really...
But I guess a 17 year old can't really think that maturely.
Yesterday I sent off my little sis.
She will be gone for 3 pathetic weeks and I am all crumpled down.
Well, I tried not to show in front of my parents.
Anyone who knows my mom will know why.
She's been sending off her daughters, all 3 of them, for so many times now and she still can't really get over the feeling of separateness just yet.
She keep on looking through the glass to see my sister walked through the immigration.
That's my lovely mom.
And that time all I wanted is to get away from the airport.
Get away from the separateness.
Get away from the scene.
So, I guess those times in Korea and Kuching,
From 17 to 21 did make a difference in me.
I grew up the good way and the bad way.